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Hrmmmmm... couldn't update my journal yesterday because the site was down. Sorry. :)
Yesterday work was pretty ok. I saw this guy who looked like the Izrin in David's site. I thought that was the Izrin I knew cos seriously, the both of them looked alike. I nearly called out to him. Thank goodness I didn't or else I would be so dead embarassed. Hur. :)
Spent my whole nite watching TV. Was watching this Steven Spielberg's movie Always , which was about this bush fireman who has been dead for 6 months. Returned to teach some other guy on how to fly the planes and to bid his last farewell to his chiq. Was pretty touchy. Watched another thriller after that. Was damn fake. Lousy. Big time.
I won't be going to Rawang anymore because I couldn't do the morning shifts today. My bloody permanent worker was pretty selfish. So, it will only be my family without me but I will still be going down to Malacca for a one day trip. :"O
Last day at work today. Wweeee :)

posted by tIcKLeMe 10:00 PM

Haha! Had fun playing "Who wants to be a Millionaire" with my mom just now. Thank you Gin Poh ( sorry, can't link his name to his site or else you won't be able to read anymore entries for me because I would be dead ), for the programme. *hargs*
I had fun insulting my mom because I was the one providing her with the answers and she didn't know much about the latest cartoons, tv programmes and stuffs.. I think she got really irritated with me. *winks*
Elizabeth was suppose to come and look for me today but I think she's not coming anymore. She just keep ffk-ing me. Elizabeth, you're lousy. *pouts*.
Vincent ( Ice^ ), is getting on my nerves now. He smsed me saying "Beep!". And I replied " Boo! `Sup wei? " and he replied me asking "Who is Sup Wei?" . *smacks forehead*. To those of you who don't get it. Damn, you shouldn't even be reading this journal. Disgrace! :)
It's suppose to be " What's up?! ". Get it? Good. :)
I hope Maxine will be reading this journal today. Maxine, if you're in PJ now, come and friggin` find me! I have not seen you for 6 years, and I want you to come and find me! *puts on a stern look*. ;P~
Will be leaving for work in about an hour's time. I will be going to Rawang and put on a night there at a resort tomorrow evening. And on Monday early morning, I will be off to Malacca. And no, Maxine + Gwen, I don't think I can drop by at MMU. *hargs*.
Oh by the way, Sudesh? Can you please come back from U.S as soon as possible? I am missing those TY babies already. *licks* :)

posted by tIcKLeMe 12:11 AM

Ok. Let me see where shall I start. First, nothing much happened at work. On the way to work though, there was this really really really irritating chinese guy who kept on singing to all the backstreet boys songs which was played on the bus. If he could sing them well, I wouldn't have mind, but he did not. Imagine the whole journey with someone giving you ear aches. *grRr*
Dah lah I am so anti-boybands. *hrmphs*. Saw Daniel, this really really tall but very very not good looking guy (whoops?) who lives near me today. Of course, he couldn't remember me. I remembered how he kept on calling me and bugging me to go out yum char with him. Gave in a couple of times but it was hell, really. :) His brother is not bad looking though. What a HUGE difference, really.
Well, after work, saw my long lost pet brother, Simon, a friend of cicaks'. I have not seen Simon for like 3 years plus. Since I first started working, when I was 15. He is currently dating with this One Academy chiq whom he claims is plump. I replied him sarcastically, " Oh, so being plump makes a person unattractive ? " and he just kept quiet. :D
He's working with Citibank. They were holding up a booth in Pyramid, which was where I met him, doh. He looks much better than the last time I saw him though. He still insulted me about how I crave for IRC all the time. Well, I don't anymore, really. :)
He teased me about how I always run gatherings and stuff. For your info, I don't do that much. It was the channel's decision. No, seriously. Really. :D
We did talked about the old times. He told me he saw me once at a mamak near my college. He called out to me but I didn't respond to it so he thought he got the wrong person. :)
Cicak is currently in Aussie, with his chiq, Mei Ghent ( pronounced as 'ken' ). His chiq is hot stuff. It will make any guy drool. Not only guys actually, girls too. How lucky can this bloody cicak get man!
I managed to get to watch my Jack and Jill just now. It's like my bloody fav series of all time! And at every episode, it always leaves an impact on me. And it'll start having my mind going crazy with all kind of imaginations, feelings and stuff. Good stuff, really. And Ivan Sergei ( I think that's Jill's name ), is simply adorable. I remembered how Abe used to tease me after every episode. Hur. >:)
Today's didn't leave such feelings on me lah though. Probably because it was aired early. Usually, it used to be at 1.40am till 3.00am. *schmiles*
Hrmphs, can't think of anything else now. So ta.
posted by tIcKLeMe 10:24 AM

This is so friggin weird. What happened to the comments by Icey, LiShih and Maxine at my chatterbox? All missing. Hrmphs.
I am bored. BORED. You know, after yesterday's experience, of not being able to find transportation to QBar, I realised what I needed most. A boyfriend. A boyfriend who is willing to drive me anywhere, anytime, anyhow. He :)
Hehe, meany me. Doubt I'll be able to find one too lah. I'm happy the way I am now. Single and Free. Free to do anything I like. Lonely? Maybe. But I don't like getting myself involved with commitments. My mom dislike that. :)
She says when you want to get into a relationship, make sure it's for real. Not just for fun. She says I should find a man who I feel really comfortable. Who will not make me do things I do not want to do. She even added that " If a man really loves you, he'll wait. If he's sincere about everything, he'll wait ". Nice, huh?
Well, out of all my past experiences, people do not understand me enough. Anyway, all I want to do now is to concentrate on my studies. I have to do well. I want to! Was kidding about my earlier desire, too. :"D
I know I have not been a good lover back then. Sorry. I know this wouldn't change how some of you feel about me now. It's okay. I deserved them. I guess back then, I was not serious about anything. Not just relationships. I think it was because I thought it was cool to have a bf. I don't think I knew what or how a relationship should be. It shouldn't be just about hogging on the phone with bf, going out for movies and all that. I was naive then. Wasn't ready, I am sure. Now, after all these bitter experiences, I have learnt my lessons well. I have learnt to understand it too. What relationships are all about, mostly. I then realise, I will never be ready for another one. Because I know how irresponsible I can be. How bitchy I can get and how bitter I can turn things into. Sorry. :(
posted by tIcKLeMe 12:09 AM

Doo wee dum... wanted to go Qbar desperately just now. Thank goodness I didn't go. Saw pretty much of my ex-skoolmates there, which is bad news. Never liked my ex-skoolmates. Most of em, that is. :)
Today work was pretty tiring. Bloody manager came and made us change nearly everything about the shop. Worked overtime. Nearly 11 hours. Nuts. Only had a meal. Dinner? One whole litre of soya bean milk. How's that? Sounds fattening? Yeah, I know. *grins*.
I am feeling weird. Half happy, half upset. Hrmphs. What that has been going through for the past few days must have really been an impact. He. :)
Okays, sorry for taking so long to update this. I was busy chatting and I accidentally abandon this journal. *hugs*.
Met Ricky today. After like what? 3 weeks? He cut his hair. Looked pretty good. But no, not enough to make me drool yet. Oh damn, I'm speechless at the moment. I think my happiness is overtaking all the unhappiness I have. You know something? I don't make any sense ere. I think I should stop here. Yahs! :D

posted by tIcKLeMe 9:51 AM

Hrmphs, just finished watching "Snake Eyes". Was okay. Better than expected. Went to do a little salad shopping at Central Hypermarket, OUG. Pretty funky place. Indoor, air-conditioned market with a super market in it. Neat. =)
Went jogging earlier on at the park. Mission incomplete. Thanx to the bloody blister I had. No idea how I had them. First it was just on my right ankle, then I had it on my left ankle. Sucky. But I didn't bother much though. I was in a good mood earlier on. Very relieved. I finally got my results. Credits of 11/15. Not as what I have expected. Thanx to the fucking Indian bitch in my group. Not only did she not do any of the group work, she cheats in exams and also did not submit one of our assignments. Just couldn't wait to give her a piece of my mind when the next semester starts. Can't wait to meet her. Was hoping she would fail this semester so the whole group + class would get to laugh our asses off at her. BEETCH! *smacks her ass non-stop*
I am feeling not alright now. Still shitty. Shitty shitty shitty.

Currently craving for : Ramly Burgers + Roti Johns
posted by tIcKLeMe 9:26 AM

Hrmphs... am bored bored bored! I hate staying at home but I am so darn broke rite now. In just a month, I have spent like what? RM1K+? And I have not gotten my pay. That's bad. I must be thrifty (yea, rite!). =)

That's a pix of a puppy from my belated beloved doggie, Lucky. He's the father of the puppy, that is. Amazing companion he was. Believe it or not, Lucky was much better looking than this but he never looks good in pix. He always ends up looking like a furry rug. :"D
Well, this puppy, Curly, doesn't live with me. She's living with my mom's best friend. :)
I love watching her. The way she wags her tail, she way she plays around. Everything about her. It makes me feel really happy. Curly is never in a bad mood. She's always cheerful. Wish I could be like her. :(
Cute, huh? :(((
All I have at home now are some fishes. I can't play with them, I can't bark with it, and most of all, I can't touch em at all! I don't see how fishes can cheer me up. I can't eat infront of them too because when I see their fins and all, it makes me wanna throw up. And I was suppose to be a big fan of fishes since I am so in love with my TY softie, Lips, who happens to be a fish.

Good looking, huh? Yea, I know. I have a great taste in almost everything but GUYS! He =)
Need to exercise, really. BIG TIME. I wanna be like Renee . She lost like what? 40 kgs. Amazing. She's my latest inspiration. :)
Will be heading either to:

a) the gym

b) the pool

c) the park ( for jogging )

Damn, my computer's really irritating me. It keeps stating " Low on memory " and it hangs. Sucks.

Currently listening to : Rhona - I wanna know what love is
posted by tIcKLeMe 1:30 AM

Hrrmphs...
I am not feeling really good. I was still thinking about what people have been saying about me. ;(
Now, I am starting to hate myself for being really tall, for an Asian lady, that is. It is pathetic how people judge you, how people assume things about you, and how people making fun of you all because you're tall for an Asian lady. I am about 177cm, which is about 5'10". I don't feel that tall when I am compared to my cousins cos most of them are 6'+. I have always been proud of my height till lately. I have always thought of it as a GIFT for being tall. Am I wrong about this? I am mad at myself right now, though I know it was not my fault. I am feeling shitty. Really shitty. It sure was a mistake to be born here as people have such negative perceptions on you. *Ouch!* I may look tough, but I am just like any other women out there. I am sensitive but only with a little more tolerance. Sucks, baby, sucks!
Am surfing for the beanie babies Sudesh had gotten for me in the U.S. I still can't seem to find them. *pahs*. Below is a pix of one of the bears Sudesh got me. Only, a very much smaller version. Enjoy! :)

posted by tIcKLeMe 11:08 PM

Hrrmphs...
I am not feeling really good. I was still thinking about what people have been saying about me. ;(
Now, I am starting to hate myself for being really tall, for an Asian lady, that is. It is pathetic how people judge you, how people assume things about you, and how people making fun of you all because you're tall for an Asian lady. I am about 177cm, which is about 5'10". I don't feel that tall when I am compared to my cousins cos most of them are 6'+. I have always been proud of my height till lately. I have always thought of it as a GIFT for being tall. Am I wrong about this? I am mad at myself right now, though I know it was not my fault. I am feeling shitty. Really shitty. It sure was a mistake to be born here as people have such negative perceptions on you. *Ouch!* I may look tough, but I am just like any other women out there. I am sensitive but only with a little more tolerance. Sucks, baby, sucks!
Am surfing for the beanie babies Sudesh had gotten for me in the U.S. I still can't seem to find them. *pahs*. Below is a pix of one of the bears Sudesh got me. Only, a very much smaller version. Enjoy! :)

posted by tIcKLeMe 11:04 PM

Boo! Today, on my way to work, this Indian man, pretty yuckky, out of all places, he sat with me. Then he started rubbing his legs and arms. DISGUSTING. Anyways, when I was going to work, I passed by the bubble tea place and found out that the place has closed down due to renovation. Sad, lah. No more bubble tea, no more bubble tea guy. :D
Oh, this morning, Arif let out a 2 years old secret to me. The indian guys in my class called me the "Big Momma". Haha!
I don't know what does it mean yet but hell, I'll find out soon. Doubt it's something good though. *cringes*
Speaking of that, Abe and his friend came just now. Hrmphs. =)
Got insulted. He =)
Tired lur. Off day tomorrow. Will be rotting at home. Pahs! :(
Was watching Everybody Loves Raymond earlier on. I think it was hilarious. I couldn't stopped laughing especially on the taufoo turkey .
The Practice was pretty good. Thumbs up for Jimmy. He did well. =)
posted by tIcKLeMe 9:46 AM

*stretches her arms*
Yawn! Just got up. It's 2:15pm now. Mom's not really happy with me getting up at such hour. Especially because I slept "early" not because of college work but because I was busy surfing the net. Hrrrmpphss....
I was listening to Josh Groban just now. I didn't quite like his songs when I first heard them. Too just not my type. But I don't know, this morning, when I was listening to him again, I realised his voice was pretty powerful and sexy. :'D
Impressive. Especially when he was singing " Vincent, starry starry night ".
I have a few version of that song but his was pretty unique. :)
Will be leaving to work in an hours time. Having a terrible headache now. Pahs!
OoOo... Conner Reeves is on. Nice. His song Earth Bound is simply amazing. Pretty soothing. I like. :)
posted by tIcKLeMe 11:19 PM

Work was okay. Did a full shift. Am damn tired now. But that's not all. I had my mind thinking and thinking, non stop about him. I told myself to just forget him, completely. I thought I was doing well cos I really managed to put him at the back of my mind. Didn't last long though. Am missing him badly. I do not understand myself. I keep rejecting every single opportunity for me to be with him. I am being silly. I might have a chance, I might not. Yet, without wanting to know the answer, I am withdrawing myself. Why? Fear, I guess. I am afraid things might not end up how I want it to be. I am sick of getting hurt but then again, it's different when I am with him. I feel like I care about nothing but what will happen next (to us, that is). I feel nothing but joy joy joy! Pah, I was in a shitty mood yesterday. Was being shitty to him too. Hope he didn't mind. ~*hargs*~
Anyways, today at work, the bubble tea guy was shocked to see me in the place I was working. He looks really cute when he's smiling. Vinnie said he has a flat butt so no matter how adorable he is when he smiles, a flat butt spoils it all. Anyways, he came with his colleague who wanted to get a wallet for her bf. She was abit the fussy type. He kept on apologising. How sweet. She came back later. Bought a set. Came back later, wanting to change it. It was going to be pretty tough for us to change but we decided that since we were all working under the same roof, hell man, we'll do it. And so we did. She felt so bad, she gave us two free bubble tea. We refused to take it but she just forced us and left. Went back later but the bubble tea guy ( oh, btw, his name is BOB ), refused to accept the money. How sweet.
Talking about sweet, Sudesh, took a 20 mins walk to get me the TYs I wanted. Thanx Sudesh. *hargs*
posted by tIcKLeMe 9:33 AM

Today work sucks but I felt good. I don't know why. I was happy inside about something else. Not work. I am starting to hate my work big time. Anyway, I am feeling dead tired now. I slept around 5 something am I think. Got up at 6:30am and went to Malacca for a 4 hour trip. Right after we reached KL, I had to go to work. So, you decide. I only had like an hour of sleep and here I am now. Half dead, but still feeling abit happy. Weird! :) Maybe because whenever I think of him, it brings a wide grin to my face. I miss him so dearly. :(
I hope to hear from him soon and even better, see him. =(
My f****** brother is making hell of a noise now. He wants to use this pc to play Yahoo! pool. F*** him. He has been using the pc for the whole day. I am not giving in. I will be going to bed soon. Too tired. I'll talk to you guys more later. *hargs*.
Oh by the way, I was wearing this pants which was in between my knees and my ankles. They said such pants was allowed. So, since I wore that to M'cca and didn't get a chance to change, I went straight to work in those pants. Then everyone told me to quickly change. How the hell could I? My house is like situated at the other end of the world. So, I had to go get a pants/skirt in 20 mins, since I was at work about half an hour earlier. It was shitty. Yea, work shucks. I hate it badly now. Especially when I feel so secluded at work because I can't speak Chinese. Any dialects except Hokkien, that is but then again, no one knows Hokkien there. They need proper education man. ;(
posted by tIcKLeMe 8:49 AM

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